today after school hudson and I went to his house after school because his parents weren’t home. so we had sex blah blah blah, but then we were just laying together and he said something along the lines of “we’ll be able to do this all the time” and I said “someday” and maybe i’m just silly, but it sounds like he genuinely thinks we have an actual future together, and it makes me so happy. there’s no one else in the world I could connect with more than I connect with him. I love him so so very much.
last night at hudson’s I didn’t feel well and I was pretty much sleeping the whole time, but hudson didn’t care. it’s nice just being with someone even when you or the other person is sick. just have company makes it better. at one point hudson felt my forehead and the back of my neck, and I must have been really hot because hudson got a cold washcloth and cooled me off. it was really sweet of him, and it’s things like that that make me appreciate him more and more.
today at esl a little girl told me that to marry someone you give them a flower and a card that says “i love you”
it’s weird how you can be so far away from someone, but still have feelings just as strong as when you’re right next to them
Hudson’s parents made us spaghetti and lit candles so we could have a little date. Aww. I love them.
Hudson and I never really call each other by our actual names. Or even any names at all. It’s weirdly comforting. Like, I don’t have greet him by saying, “Hudson!” because we can just look at each other and say things words can’t. I know when I see him my eyes light up and when he sees me he has this smile that he smiles and I love it so much. I love HIM so much. Jesus. <3
